Siena and Ela tell me i'm wrong, but they are too nice. The wreckage left by this surgery is gross. I'm sharing the picture of my leg here because it's not really that gross compared to my throat. I'm not ready to share a full face picture. My leg just feels tight and you could walk about with that wound and feel like hey 'i'm a bad ass'. But the incision that was made from ear to base of throat to ear - oh no, that is just gross. It is still leaking 'healing fluid' and some blood. The gaping hole into my trachea changes colors around the edges and threatens to show you a peak of internal organs one should never see. It is covered most of the time with the 'Larry Tube', thank goodness. Of course the tube also collect 'mucus' that is traveling up from the depths of my organs.
I press my lips firmly together all day in order to contain the drool that pours forth from my lips if they part - so please dont make me laugh! My lower face is still all inflated and it makes me grateful for covid, as i cover up with a face mask, a neck mask and a scarf, before exiting the house. Small children are spared from the site.
People have surely endured worse, but lets face it, Normal will never be Normal again.
Start thinking up the stories for people that you meet and ask about the scars You are strong emotional mentally and physically You are amazing Hugs!
Hey Sonya -- Sally E. here (too lazy to register).
You deserved every second of that video (Meli and Pat MUST perform interpretive dance at all future family gatherings -- well, I guess they usually do anyway), but just know that you don't have to be amazing or strong or tough or "diamond" - like at all times. You have definitely earned a little rustiness, bitchiness, whininess or whatever the heck you feel like being at any given time -- which when you think about it is probably the most badass attitude of all ("I can feel however I damn well want to feel"). You know we will all still love and support and cheer for you exactly the same.
Sonya, you are so worthy of all help and love you see. The wounds will heal. We can’t wait for you all to come home.
LOVE
Yes, Girl, you are definitely a BADASS. It will heal in time. In the meantime, you have some knife fight stories to tell....